Trials

Okay so I know I've been on a mission and I know better, but sometimes you can't help but feel like you're being punished for something. While I know that this is not true . . . I have just been a little frustrated lately. So my roommate told me on the 24th of last month that she was moving out on the 25th. Nice notice eh? Well my other two roommates and I started scrambling to find a replacement. We had until the 5th until rent was due. Well we had several people come and look at the place and just when we thought maybe our problem was solved. They told us no. Hence tomorrow is the 5th and we still have no more roommate. And while I know we are all learning and growing together . . . I can't help but say to myself sometimes. Am I being punished for something?

It is at times like these that I have to remind myself, though it may be hard, of others in the scriptures who have endured much harder trials. Job for instance. He had everything taken away from him and yet he still had faith in the Lord. Nephi, was persecuted constantly by his brothers, but he still had faith. The brother of Jared saw no solution to his problems, but he had faith. While I think I have had great amounts of faith in my life. . . I still think that this is a spiritual gift that I still struggle with from time to time. So my challenge to myself tomorrow is to have more faith and to stop doubting and fearing. After all I have seen many blessings come from this trial. My roommates and I are even more closer today than we were a week and a half ago. We are working together to solve our dilemma. We have had roommate prayer a few times now. That is something we never did before. And my landlord has been so nice and willing to work with us in this time of trial.