Dating

So I was talking to one of my mission companions yesterday, and I told her about my initial hesitation of creating a blog because I always felt that I should be married and have children and talk about all the funny stories about my kids, but the stories I have a single person is only about dating, work, and roommate dramas. She reminded me that sometimes those are the best stories to read about.

Being the ripe age that I am I have had my fair share of first dates, both good and bad. I went on another first date this last week and once again you go through the typical thoughts . . . Did he like me? Will he call again? Do I want to go out with him again? Did I do something incredibly stupid when I was with him? You know us girls . . . we tend to dissect it and over analyze it to death that you get to the point that you aren't really sure what to do any more. So the question is . . . . how do you just go with the flow and let things come as they come and not do the typical dissection and over analyzing of things.

I was talking to my mom today and her response was to keep myself busy with something else and let it go at the pace that he wants to set. Yeah right. Like I am going to be able to keep myself that busy that I can keep my mind from wandering and thinking about things.

The ironic thing is every time something comes a long I always think man this is a pain and it just complicates things. But then when they go a way after about a month you start wanting to go out on dates and have the attention. It is like you purposely give yourself amnesia of all the complications so you will continue to go out on first dates and then when you do start dating again not only does your amnesia go away you wind up having a crystal clear memory of all the previous relationships you have had and you start to worry about other stuff too. But at some point you have to get over yourself and just let things go. It is a vicious cycle but we all have to go through it. Otherwise where would we be as a population. =)